Saturday, December 29, 2012

What would you attempt to do if you knew you could not fail?

I'll have a "catch up" post coming later today. (I don't have my main camera with me and I want to show you the last few weeks in photos so I'll have to upload them later)

But regarding the title of this post -  I apparently accepted way too many challenges for the month of December and have therefore, pretty much failed at all of them.

I didn't blog for 25 days about Christmas, I haven't weighed in every Wednesday, and I haven't tracked my reps for the 2012 Closeout Workout Challenge.

Maybe I should feel a little remorseful for "failing" - but to be honest, I'm a little apathetic about it.

I'm bummed I didn't lose any weight - but I haven't gained, so that's something. I kept forgetting to blog about Christmas, but I doubt any of you cared too much (it's OK though - I wasn't even that excited about most of my answers) and I've probably done close to 2012 reps of exercise, but who wants to count and keep track of that many?

So it's December 29th and it's almost 2013 so it's time to start fresh with some new goals for the coming year.  There are so many things I'd love to try or do, but don't because I'm fearful that I won't be successful.  I love to accomplish tasks, but am hesitant about starting one's that I'm not confident about the outcome.

But another quote that I often refer to reminds me that goals are supposed to be scary and challenging.
This is something my husband has helped me understand during long training runs. When I first started running, I just wanted to finish the race.  I kept saying, "I don't care if I come in last, I just want to finish." Now there's nothing wrong with desiring to "just finish," and finishing is better than not even starting - but my husband helped me see further than that.  He was so confident in my ability to not only finish, but to finish well, he helped me overcome that fear of failure. When I was focused on "just finishing", it didn't matter how long my walk breaks were, because I could feasibly walk the whole race and still finish in their time limit. But he pushed me to be stronger than that and even though it was scary - I was able to accomplish so much more than I ever thought I could.

A couple months ago, Donny pitched the idea that after my half in January, we start training for a full marathon. Running twice as long as I ever have before, terrifies me. But that's good, because if I were honest with myself, I would love to run even more than a marathon.  I would love to run an ultra or compete in a full triathlon. But my fear of failure keeps me from actually pursuing those secret goals.

So all that to say, in 2013 I would like to...
•Run a full marathon
•Get to my goal weight of 145 pounds
•Keep my house tidy
•Find more ways to serve & bless my husband
•Grow the blog

What are your goals for 2013, both safe and scary one's?

1 comment:

  1. you might be into this:

    I don't know if you've done it before but it seems like you might like trail racing.

    I did Montana De Oro in SLO (15k?) and loved it.

    My gym hosts free training sessions for Mt Wilson every saturday starting in February, and the people who attend always do really well.